2007-08-20 - 10:52 p.m.
Once again I find myself looking down into the abyss. Why? Why do I dwell on this shit?
I lost 50 lbs. I look good. I need to let my skin shrink a little around my waist, but basically I'm hot! I have to tell myself that, because I've spent so much time trying to remain normal & not vain that I've stopped believing in my beauty.
I am tired & cranky & I want to cry... but if I cry I won't stop. Grandma Walker died last week & I haven't really grieved yet. This all sucks!
